Is it bad that I’m starting to get overwhelmed already? Yeah, that’s what I thought.
Ever since school started I haven’t had a day off – either I’m at school or I’m at work. As is I had to type this on my phone on my way to work this morning. All I wanted to do was go back to bed, boot camp really exhausted me mentally. I haven’t even had time to think about what I’ll write about for this blog post. This balancing act of school and work is no easy task for me.
I’m very lucky that Andrew has been there for me, he always makes me the best food for when I get home and helps me destress. But that’s another thing for me to balance, I can’t just ignore my relationship. It has to be worked at and nurtured, since we’ve both been busy and overwhelmed we’re going on a date tonight to see It at the Cineplex VIP theatre at Lansdowne. While I could be spending this time doing homework and writing my blog post, Andrew and I should be going on dates and spending time together whenever we can. Or the relationship could suffer and I want to keep my rock.
Either way, I have my cats, and I can always count on them to look awkward and concerned then run out of the room if I ever have a meltdown. Thanks, guys. I wish I had a dog…storytime! Yesterday Andrew and I were walking back to our apartment after running errands and saw one of the most beautiful dogs I have ever seen. Andrew had to ask what the breed was, the owner who was a nice old lady told us Charlie is a German Shepherd-Husky mix. He had such beautiful warm brown colouring, Andrew and I were about to walk away but Charlie walked over to say hi. He started off by sitting on my foot after I started rubbing behind his ear, then he proceeded to lay down on my foot for belly rubs, keep in mind he’s probably around 100 pounds. It still made my day though, after Andrew got his turn with Charlie and we got into our building we were nearly in tears over how awesome that was and how much it sucked that we couldn’t afford a dog along with our two cats.
Man, I’ve got to be honest, the last thing I want to think about right now is anything related school. This post may be lacking in the educational factor, but I will make up for it with some artsy shots of my cats on their favourite Ikea shelf by the window.
And now, on my way to see a horror movie on a giant screen in the dark. I may not sleep much tonight…
And now that I’m back, I have one thing to say. Fuck everyone who told me It is not that scary and that it’s more of a thriller than a horror movie. It scared the shit out of me. I am not sorry for swearing. That movie was not okay. The non-scary parts were really great and overall it was very well done. But that movie was not okay.
The scariest part of the night though? Trying to call an Uber from Lansdowne and not realizing he couldn’t get to Andrew and me because of roadblocks for City Folk. He called me and I could barely hear him or understand him and I felt so awful. Andrew and I finally found him and I was doing everything not to have a panic attack. Now it really feels like I’m back at school; stretched so thin that the smallest things undo me. And I mean I had just watched a scary ass movie, so cut me some slack.
For the sake of my mental health, I think I will end my post here. My goal for next week is to get a better handle on this balancing act so I can continue to share my knowledge and anecdotes of my oh-so-interesting life. Take it easy everyone, and it’s okay to have some ice cream after a panic attack right? Good.